READY OR NOT
You can’t be 70ish without thinking about death. Sorry, please do not give up on me yet. I’m going to make this as painless as possible and throw in a few jokes to sooth your worries.

AT MY AGE MANY TESTS AND DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS HAVE ME FEELING LIKE THIS
Grandpa Sanderson’s favorite indoor sport later in his senior years was attending funerals. When you’re young, it’s not a number one priority but in his generation and with his kind and generous spirit and upbringing, you attended church and you loyally attended funerals for friends and loved ones who have passed.
Now that I am in my early 70’s, I understand since recently I’ve lost some good friends and relatives. One of our longtime friends passed away in August and she was 70ish. Her husband of 54 years taught math and science with a lot of our friends at our local school for over 30 years. He’s taking it really hard. He called me yesterday for my birthday. We had a solid conversation with some philosophy and emotional support thrown in. It was intense. After the happy birthday wishes, he talked about his wife’s death. He is reading books on grieving and joining a support group. He was numb and did not know his own name for two weeks after she passed away, he told me. Then he said his wife sent a message to him from the after life and he realized she wanted him to keep loving others. He decided to use his time left on Earth to learn. She wanted him to learn about himself and others throughout this grieving process. To turn it into another chapter in life and not hang his head in sorrow.
It was good to hear him speak of his experience. He’s always been a caring, thoughtful man. He has these 70ish years left to learn and grow. His wife would have wanted him to keep learning, to keep loving life like she did.

DO NOT DROWN YOUR SORROWS WITH ALCOHOL!
Our sons visited this week. One from LA and one from the Bay Area. I was chatting away as we sat around our old kitchen table (an antique table that sat in Grandma and Grandpa’s South Dakota cabin long ago). I was telling them about teacher friends and family that had passed away. Our oldest son said. “Uh, I have a rule that you can’t mention more than two people who have died in our conversation.” He did it with a half smile on his face. He didn’t explain himself so I figured he was teasing. Later I decided that being 42, he didn’t want to hear about dead people. On the other side being 70ish, I’m experiencing several close friends passing away which leads to realizing how close to death I am at this age and stage.
Back to my phone conversation with our friend who’s wife died last month: his wife who had cancer 13 years ago and had beaten it for the time being, always said on her birthday each year she was so happy to be here. She was glad to be alive. She loved and learned in the time she had left.
It’s another part of being older whether you’re 65 or 75 or 85. We face the end differently the closer we get to it. Our son joked around by making up a rule about dead people in conversation. That’s how he dealt with the subject. And that’s fine.
I once heard that our first name is Birth and our last name is Death. I don’t like that saying. I prefer the old saying: you’re as young as you feel. I also prefer my friend opting for continued learning and loving in life. And his message to me that day was “Happy Birthday” so I am still celebrating my birth, another year to look forward to and having that cocktail and enjoying that sunset.

ENJOYED THE BEACH IN CARMEL ON MY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ALL.






















































