Murdo Girl…I asked you why.

Mary Francis McNinch

I asked you why because I didn’t know how far I would have to go. What would it take? What would you need from me? Would I discover what you see in me.

I tried so hard to believe in you. I really thought I wanted to, but what I needed was honesty. Not from you… but from me.

I couldn’t face my biggest fears. I couldn’t see myself through all the tears. I couldn’t tell you secrets I was keeping. Did they hold the answers I was seeking?

I decided it was time to leave. There is no hope if you can’t believe. The trust I never had might never come. This sad moment made my heart feel numb.

It was then it all came flooding in. I had to tell you. Where would I begin? I know I still have so much to face, but I’ll be fine if I accept your grace.

Now, I can feel you in my soul and heart. I know you’ve been there from the very start. You waited patiently for me to know. There is no better place to go.

I promise I will come to you. Where you take me, I will follow. You fill the space meant for only you that once was hollow.

Help me help others to come to believe, and I promise to you I’ll always cleeve. I asked you why because I didn’t know how much farther I would have to go.

What would it take? What would you need from me? Would I discover what you see in me? I tried so hard to believe in you. I really thought I wanted to,

But what I needed was honesty. Not from you… but from me.